i try to be honest with myself, i really do. but sometimes, i find myself saying things that seem right, but in my mind and my heart i know they don't represent who i am. what i mean is, i hide a lot of things. i don't let it show when things get to me, when somebody disappoints me or hurts me. i just act like it's no big thing, like i could give a shit what they do anyway.
i really, really need to stop doing that.